When Life Gives You Lemons
“When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.”
I view myself as a very positive person. I appreciate the little things, don’t require much and love deeply. Despite these qualities, I have seasons where I find it very difficult to make lemonade. Sometimes I am simply overwhelmed by pressure and expectations I place on myself as a mother, a business owner, and a wife. I can also become bogged down by pain others have inflicted on me. Instead of meditating on kind, positive thoughts, I become completely obsessed over every negative detail I can muster. Ruminating on such thoughts, only produces deeper depression and debilitating sadness. Great for songwriting, horrible for living life.
As a mother, when I experience these lows, it becomes very difficult for me to function in a loving, patient way. Every little, “mom, can you help me do this…” or “mom, I’m hungry” or “mom, I need to tell you something,” blows up into a monumental request. It’s unfair to them because they have nothing to do with my bad mood. I used to feel like I had to hide my pain, my tears, and any frustration from them. However, today I see it differently. I want my girls to see that Mom is a fighter. That I am doing the BEST I can. That I am working hard to keep my family, my work and our home together. That life is not always EASY. That struggle can translate into joy and fulfillment when you press on and push through tough times. I want to show them the strength of a woman. Just because I cry, doesn’t mean I am weak.
My faith sustains me. I don’t always understand immediately, the WHY behind the pain. Why are things difficult? Why did that someone do me wrong? Or the WHAT in “What” am I supposed to learn or gain from this? I need time and space to offer the bird’s eye view. Time and patience enables me to process and evaluate how I will carefully, deliberately, and lovingly put the pieces back together and move forward. I will never give up. I am a fighter. It’s not always easy to make lemonade when life delivers a bucket of lemons to you; but, the highs and lows of life are all part of the journey and eventually shape us into the WHO we want to be.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.” – Proverbs 3:5-6